Subbed at Palmer Memorial Episcopal Church this morning for Sampy Wall. They had seven infants baptized at the 11am service. When the Rev. Nutter asked if anyone else was interested in joining them, a girl of about 12 or so stepped forward and said she would like to be baptized. When he asked her why, she replied that she wanted God to be always with her.
It made me feel really good to see her get baptizied this morning. I believe God is with each and every one of us, whether we acknowledge Him or not, whether we realize it or not.
The Bach Choir performed a song two years ago by Michael Horvitz, Even When God is Silent, the text of which came from a poem written on a basement wall in Germany by someone hiding from the Gestapo:I believe in the sun, even when it is not shining.
I believe in love, even when feeling it not.
I believe in God, even when God is silent.
(Our recording of it from the Thomaskirche in Leipzig in 2001
I’ll be the first one to admit that I have been extremely blessed in my life. I have been given many talents, parents and a brother whom I couldn’t have chosen any better, friends who are kind, caring, and supportive, the list goes on and on. But even with all these advantages I still experience periods of questioning and doubt when things don’t go as I hope or I meet with obstacles or disappointment. But deep down I do know that He is there. Another one of my favorite quotes, from de Tocqueville’s Democracy in America:
I cannot believe that the Creator made man to leave him in an endless
struggle with the intellectual wretchedness that surrounds us.
I am ignorant of His designs, but I shall not cease to believe in them
because I cannot fathom them, and I had rather mistrust my own capacity
than His justice.